Jeremiah 17:7-8
“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”
I have been struggling with depression again of late and finding it hard to have the will power to get up each day. A lot of it boils down to not having enough to keep me occupied. I could have been using my time to do creative things like art or photography or writing but I just didn't have the inclination to.
Whilst I have a lot to look forward to this year with a trip to Cape Town at the end of this month to do a course and then going to the UK for a working holiday in June all the changes have also unsettled me and I am a creature of routine to an extent so the forthcoming changes knock me. I have also been apprehensive about studying again as the last time I did was in Switzerland and that ended badly. I need to regain confidence and feel I can do it.
Had been worried too about leaving my Mum on her own whilst I was away after we had the armed robbery. We have found a reliable gardener now though who is living on the property and this will mean better security for my Mum. Just have to get our dog Jasper to not attack our gardener.
Guess what I really need to do is trust God and his plans and stop going so far ahead into the future of what ifs that I don't live in the present of what is. Having too much time to think on my own is not good. Whilst I'm a people person at times though, when I am having a dip the last thing I feel like doing is being social, but it is often one of the best things I can do.
My therapist has suggested I try get out the house each day and fit in daily exercise. To also try get down to doing some art and to think about things of beauty and good.
