Well I am mindful that it is almost three years exactly to the day when I had my breakdown and went into hospital with severe clinical depression in Switzerland and it makes me look at where I am and where I have come from. I am so much better and have had a good run recently with no major dips. I am taking ownership of where I am going and considering more options for work and life in general. For the moment I am happy to be where I am in Zim but I am considering options to try obtain better paying work and a bit more fulfillment and stimulation mentally.
I joined a writing group at the beginning of this year after I returned from Cape Town and it is definitely the highlight of my week. The deal is we each have to write something to share with the group each week and this makes me sit and pen something for each week's session. It is proving to be very cathartic and I have realised I really do enjoy writing. This may even be a path I could pursue and which excites me. I would like to ultimately write about my experience in Switzerland where I was hospitalised and at some point describe my rather warped sense of reality. I still cannot determine from that time how much was fact and how much I had over-reacted to and imagined.
So for the moment life is good and I am definitely in a spacious place where possibilities exist and I don't feel boxed in and trapped by limited choices. I haven't decided yet if I will stay in Zimbabwe but I will see it that I could always go explore elsewhere but leave open the option of returning. The one instability in my life is what will happen when we have elections in a few months time. In many ways I would like to be here rather than outside looking in and bombarded by overhyped media reports in another part of the world. Will cross that bridge when it comes though.
